"Nope...Not Today!" Maybe I wasn't clear...I repeat, "Nope...Not Today!" Every single morning I wake up...or should I say I barely come to before the devil pounces on me to steal my peace! I mean I would like to think that after a restful night's sleep that I would awaken much like that of Snow White...seven willingly servants surrounding me, a handsome prince leaning in and little birds fluttering by while chirping a cheerful tune...her restful sleep has brought her peace and tranquility. Again, nope...not today! Instead, I wake up much like I lay down...consumed with the day's events and concerned about what tomorrow holds. Now, I do have four seemingly willing helpers whom I often say "ya'll need some Jesus" before my feet hit the floor and I do have that prince charming that I love unconditionally, but might not like him a little bit at that moment. Definitely no singing birds...just the sound of Pearl needed to go out unexpectedly at 5:45a.m....now that I think about it Prince Charm did insist on taking her out without hesitation nor sarcasm so his likability just went up a few notches.
As a mom, a wife, a friend, a business woman...I have an unlimited supply of things to worry about. I may run out of a lot of things...milk, paper bowls, printer paper...but I can assure you that I never run out of things to worry about...it is like there is an infinity supply of worries. So many demands, the constant questions and let us not forget the constant hovering over my shoulder....all of which can turn quickly into worry and anxiety.
Waking up...while it seems to be the easiest thing to do it is often the hardest part of my day. Now don't get me wrong, I am very thankful that God has blessed me with another day but I would be lying if I said that waking up was easy. It's almost like I need to wake up twenty minutes early in my mind...no sudden movements...just wake up and gather my thoughts and lift up my armor in order to be able to deflect the enemy so that my thoughts are not turned into worries.
When my worries seem endless and my anxiety is at its peak, that is the moment when I turn to worship...I turn to praise music and being outside...taking a few minutes to be completely consumed by nothing other than praising God. When I get to this place in my mind I remember that He knows my name...and my heart...and I remember that He promises to never forsake me nor will He leave me.
Today, I will remember to use worship to deflect those worries and allow God's goodness to fill my mind, my heart and my ears. I will keep focused on the good things that surround me and I will speak positive words over our situation and I will believe them. I know that I am not capable of handling everything on my own and thankfully I don't have to...instead l can give those worries to God.
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