Do you have a theme song for your life? Here lately, it seems that David Bowie and Queen are singing their way through my life with "Mm ba ba de, Um bum ba de, Um bu bu bum da de...Pressure pushing down on me" or better known as Under Pressure. Sometimes, I feel like the walls are slowing pushing in on me. There is so much to do, but never enough time do it. Since the start of the pandemic, we have all experienced many new beginnings and are desperately trying to adjust to our new ways of life. My husband, Jason, has started an amazing new job, we are preparing for more of our family to move even closer to us, I just launched my new website (which by the way is officially LIVE as of last night) and the list goes on...to say that I am yet again spreading myself thin is an understatement. Remember these are just a few new beginnings...I still have a household, four kids, homeschooling, a dog, extra curricular activities and most importantly feeding our flock both nutritionally speaking as well as spiritually.
When I sat down this morning to read my devotion, my bible opened to the book of Mark. It was a reminder that while I may be feeling the pressure weighing down on me, it is nothing compared to what Jesus went through...crowds of people (I am not a fan), Satanic attacks, an overwhelming workload, demanding people, criticism that was less than constructive and then of course the inevitable family drama. Now, I like to think of myself as a Grace Under Fire...that I can perform my best work under pressure with the best attitude. Wishful thinking, I know. The outcome is most always excellent with the recipients quite pleased of my works; unfortunately, I find myself apologizing for my behavior...might have been a little impatient, a little ill-tempered, a little snippy and become so overwhelmed with emotion because I wanted everything to be just perfect. It would be so much easier to just be like Jesus and show only one thing...compassion. Regardless of the pressure that Jesus was ever under, His response was compassion. My prayer today and everyday moving forward is that the Lord will help me to be more like Him and only respond with compassion.
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