Have you ever felt like you have messed up so badly that God would not love you anymore? My mama always said that I went through the Terrible Twenty-Twos instead of the Terrible Twos. When you are two years old, life can be pretty frustrating. You try desperately to express your feelings, only for no one to understand what you are saying or feeling. When you are two, you often do things without thinking about the repercussions. And when you are two, especially if you have a younger sibling (trust me, it's possible...Sidney and Israel are perfect examples of being two years old and five months old), you will either attempt to blame others for your mishaps or you will at least bring them along for the ride. While all of that is true for the Terrible Twos, the same can be said for the Terrible Twenty-Twos. So again I ask the question, have you ever felt like you have messed up so badly that God would not love you anymore? My answer is YES!
In spite of how we think our lives or the lives of our children will unfold, it's really not up to us. Our kids are currently preparing for the musical Seussical Jr....part of our community theater. The Cat in the Hat sings "Oh The Things You Can Think" one of many songs performed. The Sour Kangaroo sings "Biggest Blame Fool"...both of which apply to this devotion. We can think all the things we can think if we chose to open our minds so say the lyrics, but it's when we open our hearts to Jesus and ask Him what He thinks...that's when things truly begin to unfold.
It's odd how I often feel like I am wandering around in this world at times with no direction at all...and if I do, I am certain my kids do too! We don't have to...Jeremiah 29:11 tells us that He has a plan already for us...our future...and hope which is something we often forget. I often wonder to what extent I can be disobedient to God and He still be accepting of me. I know in looking at my own kids that there is nothing they could ever do to make me love them less. I can't think of any mistake they could make that I would not offer them forgiveness. When they come to me with an unclear direction, I will always offer them clarity. When they are at their weakest, I will be there to encourage them. As a child of God, I believe that is how He loves me.
So, even when I think that I have completely jacked something up along my way... I know that at the end of the day God has a plan for me....a future and a hope.
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